New Doggy! New Thoughts!

Hey peeps, long time no blog. My personal criteria for blogging has become more stringent - basically only essential items/events/experience/thoughts can appear here. Haha... one such unique, one-in-a-million, awesome thing just happened to my family!!!!! :D

We adopted a dog!

She's a 4 years old Female 13" Beagle. Name that my sis got for her is just totally awesome - Google. Cause she's a sniffer, searches for stuff. Google search. Get it? Hee hee...

Olive is not too happy at first... pissed that attention is gonna be divided now. But come day 2... OMG! Google is just following Olive around like a love-struck schoolgirl! Haha.. they're like best pals now, even greeting me at the door one stacked on another. ;)

Will really do my best for Google and Olive.. kept feeling like I didn't do enough for Tabby... :( Sorry girl.

我就是这样的...

我就是这样的人，太容易被感动，也太容易心动。
我就是这样的人，一旦喜欢上某一个人，就是喜欢，有些莽撞。
我就是这样的人，只能是这样的人。

想要帅帅的处理，想要静静的离开。
不希望让你担心，不希望自己伤心。
知道这是唯一的选择，也知道自己该做的，
但心仍是痛的，仍是想着的。
问你怎么忘，问你怎么不想；怎么回复微笑？
要的只不过是一点关心，一些问候，你的讯息。

我会让自己快乐的，相信我吧。
需要的只是时间，只是勇气，
去放弃'可能', 放弃'或许', 放弃你。

我就是这样的人，只能是这样的人。

A Dream...

So long since my last post.. need to get this out somewhere so might as well...

Last night i had a dream.
I dreamt I was talking to you over the phone.

Then you met with an accident.
There was a huge crash and a scream.

I called up all the hospitals.. That's when i realized i knew so little about you.
Recep: "Patient's name?"
I told them yours.
Recep: "His age?"
I don't know. I'm really bad at numbers.
Recep: "His birthday?"
I don't know... I had an awkward urge to laugh. You probably don't care either.
Recep: "Hold on please..."

I found you.

By the time i rushed to the hospital.. your entire family was there.
I introduced myself as your friend.
They nodded.
I sat alone at the line of hard-backed waiting chairs, a little away from the rest of your family,
The lights in the hospital were really glaring. I glanced at my shoes... Time passed.

Your Mum: "Are you the girl who went kite flying with my son?"
I said yes.
Your Mum: "You can leave now. We'll be here to care for him."
I pleaded to stay.. "I'll leave the moment he wakes up.. He doesn't have to see me. Please let me stay for now."

Her footsteps shuffled away.
I bought coffee from the vending machine... They come in little white styrofoam cups.
I handed them out to your family, I had none.
I went back to the line of chairs.
I noticed your little nephew.. and remembered what he said to you the other day.
He's really cute.

Time passed.
You're lying on the hospital bed, struggling to breathe.
Your family's around you.
I stood alone at the corridor and willed you to open your eyes.

You are waking up.
I took a step forward, then remembering my promise, I turned to leave.

I woke up from the dream.
Simply opened my eyes and I'm back in my own bed.
My eyes hurt.
Another day...

We've Created.

It was an amazing day... In fact, it was so great that i couldn't even begin to describe. Perhaps if you ever had a great burden lift off your shoulders after a great many number of days, if you had seen the reward spilling from a piece of work which took you 2, 3 years to complete, then maybe you would understand. But otherwise, i don't see how you can possibly feel what each of us felt that day. Amazing...

The School of Art, Design and Media held our first ever FYP show on 28th April 2009, showcasing works from all majors - Visual Communication, Product Design, Interactive Media, Film, Photography and Animation, with artworks spanning from still shots to prototypes, from sketches to actual film reels. All these proved one thing - We, ADM's pioneer batch (05/06), have created.

These are some high standards for the later generations to keep up with. But then again, where are the surprises if these were to get too easy? Well, most importantly though, have fun while creating, because in the end, that's all that matters.

Cheers,
Ellen

長大了。

I have 'grown uped' a tad over the past few years in ADM. It wasn't a complete waste of time after all.

I have gotten to know and learn under some great teachers.
I have gotten to know film. I don't understand it completely, but I realized it's something I love.
I have gotten to know friends, and even worked with people whom I couldn't quite comprehend.
I have gotten to taste relationships, bizarre and complicated things they are; but i loved every of these memories, bitter or sweet.
I have gotten to know myself, what I want, and what I need. Getting them is not a definite, but thing is, I see.
I have gotten to know my family, and appreciate them for all there is.

I am truly glad to have been in ADM, no matter how much complaints there had been. And to all fellow 4th year Pioneer Batch of ADMers... It had been a really fun 4 years.. ^-^ I really couldn't see myself knowing a batch more fun and colourful than you all!

I'll have to admit,
I'm not in the best of moods these days.

I'm bothered by his coldness,
I'm uncomfortable with the distance.
I'm unused to the void that used to be his place.

I told a friend that I don't care.
I told her that he's just not being fair.

Well... I kept telling myself the same.
That perhaps, he's just a friend in name.

I didn't even know what made him leave.
And if it's my fault, listen up boy

I'm truly sorry.

就

不知怎麼了，
不知何時的，
快要瘋掉了，
遲些時候嘛，
問他怎麼了呀，
忍著眼淚嗎？
讓他去吧，
把他忘了吧，
想放手啊，
舍不的吧．．．