Thoughts

Bao Bei was good to me today... After a long hard day at mugging to organize my 3D stuff, she's still humming happily and working fine. But sorry to Bao Bei, I just can't concentrate to work fast enough. The mind, constantly preoccupied by thoughts of her: How is she? Better le mah? Is she ok? Repeitative questions that will come to a singular answer... She will be.

I'm contented.

I came to realise, that no matter how much I put in, it'll nv win over a single smile, a wave of hand, a light, feathery kiss from her. Coz I'm not her. And I nv will be.

The pain in my heart has been muted over by a strange sense of peace. At least you are with someone u really love. U're contented. That's why I'm happy for u.

I noe at this point of time, I should be crying.. Crying as I go about my life, crying as I think of this, crying myself to sleep. But I won't. Because u're happy, and it would be inappropriate for me to do so. But what I do know is that these tears will only flow the day when u need some1 to cry with. Only then will I allow myself... I'll be there. I know it.